My Great Escape ;
Do not go where the path may lead, go instead where there is no path and leave a trail.
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Waiting For The Calendar Pages To Change.
Have you ever had the feeling you just want to go insane ? Your completely done with taking all this pain ? Thats how I feel every day of my life . Have you ever felt like your missing a part of you . Like your living without the person you love the most ?
I miss these fools everyday :
Without them ; I'm NOTHING. Yes I cry about them in my sleep even when I'm daydreaming . It all feels like a fantasy yehknow? I mean , have you ever been away from your loved ones for so long that you just want to break yourself down and cry it out . Like I said crying got me nowhere. Maybe its time for me to let go and go on my own . I wont stop loving them I'll just simply learn to live without them . They hold a special place in my heart forever . They've been with me through the bad times and the good times . Yet everything changes throughout your lifetime . Once you look back at everything you'll find yourself lost in the past. But hey , someones gonna have to tell you to get on with your life. My family is my everything , I seriously don't know what I would do without them . They've kept my head up through everything . Even at times all of us dont get along , we yell at each other bcuz we love each other . We always try to change or do the best for ourselves to keep our future good . But we go through many obstacles in the process even in an arguement . It makes us stronger than we were before . We always try to correct the wrongs and try to prevent from having the wrongs but we all know we can fix something that is broken. The experiences I went through my family was always the best education I could ever get from anyone else. Their the passionate light in my dark days . Knowing I'm miles away from them , makes it hard for me to focus on myself. I always reminisce and think about the good times we had . But good times dont last long . And so does bad times. It may be stormy but it cant rain forever.
Sunday, April 26, 2009
Just Can't Find The Words .
I just can't find the words ):
I had a great time at San Jose , and I can't stop thinking about eating lasagna ! Hahah XD , It's super yummy ! (: Omg , My science project is almost due soon ! Goosh , And my printer isn't working ): But yeeah , Everything on my mind right now is CST's . Urgh ; My head is like going insane =/ Ommg , but I hope I do good ! Noo good score no $MOOLAH$ . Hah , for the people whos reading this right now , have you ever felt like you feel the need to stop missing someone ? Well if you do , thats EXACTLY how I feel right now. But yet , I'm still a young girl learning about life. I mean , I'm pretty happy being a SINGLE happy camper . People need love , just not the one with that lovey dovey gooey gooey shieeet . I've never met a person desperate to find love . Honestly I think thats ridiculous . Knowing that your in need of a guy to please you ? Omg, thats straight up bullshiet. Goosh , a STRONG woman wouldn't need a guy to complete her . People like that never heard of happiness you know ? Gooosh , thats what this world needs , Happiness .
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Define Yourself .
Yesh , For the fact that I really don't know who's my friend , and whos just being hella fake. For the fact that I'm growing up I'm starting to realize who's my friend and who's really not. People who are hella fake just pretend to act like your friend and make you feel like their always there. When apparently their REALLY not. All they want to do is step on your heart and keep pulling it outtah you agen and agen. Why do people say " I got hella love for you " and " I got your back " really meant " I could careless about you " and " I'd rather let you fall then see you be better than me " . What kind of friend is that ? Now , I seriously don't know how to define " friends " . It's more like stick up for yourself , stand up on your two feet , never rely on someone bcuz they don't rely on you , speak for yourself. Gosh , what happened to this world ? =/ . The word " bestfriend " is so confusing . What is best ? What is a friend ? Thats what I wanna know . Cuz right now , I don't know what they mean .
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Just Another Day.
Whenever I make mistakes ;
I cant erase them .
Sooo , today , was the same except the fact that it was freeakin' HOT ! It was like 95 degrees I believe? But anyways , I wore shorts the day before and everybody like looked at me becuz soome moofoos' in my class said my shorts looked hella short , and I felt so offended bcuz everyone like literally looked at me just bcuz I was the only one who had CUTE shorts on . I mean , I don't regret wearing shorts , 1 bcuz it was REEEALLY HOT TOO ! So I was like " HAH! You guys said my shorts were too short , HAH! LOOK AT YOOURS! Goosh . I haate that. Anywhoooo , I've been having alot of homework lately =/ AS USUAL. Well , Imma add more later ! Goonna goo shoower ! Buuuhbyes ! (:
Sunday, April 19, 2009
Motivation .
Obviously I don't know what I want . Who does ? I mean like you cant really predict your future in life. You come as it goes . Obstacles ? Get over it . Hatred . Hi Hater ! [; Love = obsession w/ another persons passion for you. baby I ain't easy thou . I need to make the right decisions even if I'm indecisive. Theres always going to be a time where your going to have to make up your mind even if it meant your whole life depends on it. Yes . I admit , I am jealous of certain people . Yet I'm still not ashamed knowing that I am. But what makes a difference. There always a point in your life where you find yourself jealous of someone . = one answer. Wanting Of Perfection .
Saturday, April 18, 2009
Hopelessly Dying Inside.
Heeeey People! ; I havent been on blogspot for like hella long , so imma just write something random. Anyways . I've been REALLY busy with homework and such that everything else is sucha blur to me >.< Yesh , I know my life is REALLY hectic. But hey , life ain't easy . And sure will not slowdown for you . But the experience is worthwhile right ? And God gave you one life to live , he made a purpose for all of us being here on earth , obviously that reason is to live our lives . Gooossh , I feel hella replaced and chyaah . But I don't wanna show it bcuz I sure damn know that I already gave my preends hella bullsh!t already , so I don't wanna make more drama . Cuz for all I know is that I'm 100% Drama-free. Life will ALWAYS try tuh bring you down . Life is what you make it . But know that everything will eventually be okay. OHMYGAASH ! , The Hannah Montana movie made me cry ! It was super cute . It had hella meaning to it too ! And I'm getting a new fooone ! (: I'm extremely HAPPY. Anyways I guess I'll end this ? But I might add more later ! Buurrbyeee ! (:
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
A Puddle Of Tears.
Love all, trust a few;
Do wrong to none.
Until we take how we see ourselves (and how we see others) into account, we will be unable to understand how others see and feel about themselves and their world. Unaware, we will project our intentions on their behavior and call ourselves objective.
Urgh , my stomach hurts , I missed a day of learning HOW GAY?!? I mean I enjoy school , I hate missing a day bcuz of my preeakin stomach . I hate it * . BLAAAAH . Whatever , I make mistakes , I learn from it , isn't that what life is ? , but yet you still feel ashamed of it . And honestly that feeling tends to stay for awhile. Urgh , Learn , Lesson , DONE. Anyways I'm going to the city THIS week , and omg , I finally finished my research ! (= My teacher said only 2 paragraphs at the shortest . But YAAAY! Hahah , I hope its gona give me an A (: Hahah , Urgh , Stomach aching ageen ! Meen-__- I like cry everyday now ): Is that bad for you ? I get so emotional these days "/ Whaatevs , this shiet is boring imma go foor noow , Live on surprises , Expect NOTHING.
Friday, April 3, 2009
Insomnia .
Hello Anyone Who Is Currently Reading This Crap Right Now , I decided not to do my science research until I go back to school bcuz I REALLY don't know what to do. And I'm halfway confused about it . Ohwell , pretty much NO ONE did the whole project yet anyway . OMG , I can't wait to get back to my CityHype ! I feel so out of my zone XD . Hahaha , hmm , I'm like hella bored right now. Nothing to rant about really . I need some flats , I already got some dunks . And I need some new vans ! URRGH. Weeell gooonna go noow ! BUURBYY.
Mkaay , so that was what I was ABOUT to post THREE DAYS AGO ^^^^
But I made a new one :P . Hahaha , soo anyways . School was HELLA boring today . I mean I was happy to see everyone , I got alot of BEARhugs . Hahah , I missed those fools :P . But overall , my classes were SOO boring . I mean , I could of fell asleep in class . Not because I was tired , but because it was so faaacking boring . But I have to admit I was a BIT tired today because I was soo excited last night to go back to school . I believe I only got like 5 or 6 hours of sleep. But I feel SOOO awake. But I bet I'll be super tired later :P Hahah . So many tests are coming up -___- Gootta get my head in the gaaame ! Goosh , Anywaays Imma goo poor noow , Im GHOST.
Mkaay , so that was what I was ABOUT to post THREE DAYS AGO ^^^^
But I made a new one :P . Hahaha , soo anyways . School was HELLA boring today . I mean I was happy to see everyone , I got alot of BEARhugs . Hahah , I missed those fools :P . But overall , my classes were SOO boring . I mean , I could of fell asleep in class . Not because I was tired , but because it was so faaacking boring . But I have to admit I was a BIT tired today because I was soo excited last night to go back to school . I believe I only got like 5 or 6 hours of sleep. But I feel SOOO awake. But I bet I'll be super tired later :P Hahah . So many tests are coming up -___- Gootta get my head in the gaaame ! Goosh , Anywaays Imma goo poor noow , Im GHOST.
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
Breathless.
Mkaaay Peeeples , its exactly 10:24 p.m right now and yet I'm still on SpringeffingBreak . Soo yaah , I'm talking to Chelsie Orbase right noow too , chees dopetastic , I mean foreals thou , chees hella tight. Chees my SpongyWongy , and I'm her PattyWatty (: Were like Selena Gomez & Demi Lovato(: EW, But I don't like Demi Lovato for some reason :P Anyways I'm going to the library tomorow and do some research on my project . Gotta get dem good grades right ? I want to meet CHELSIE MARIE ORBASE ! I loove her so much! Anywhooo , I like this song called " Eat You Up - Boa " it's so seductive I mean you got to listen to it ! I might put it as my default song for my blog (=! WHOOHOO. I'M GOING TO THE CITY THIS WEEKEND ! YAYUH. Well gootta goo , expect more from me , live on surprises (:
